I Feel So Close...

It's perfect picnic weather

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 22:08:53 GMT

It sleeted yesterday, but the ice melted and it reached to 52 degrees today. It wasn't that cold when I went to my classes.

So I'm finally on birth control. It's about time. my periods are very irregular and I get excruciating cramps with it. Plus, Harold and I are sexually active, and I dont think we need a mini-Harold running around anytime soon. Heather went with me to Planned Parenthood. They forced me to take a Pregnancy test. They charged me for that, the visit, and the pills, and it totaled to be 40 dollars. I was shocked. I didn't even need the test, and I assumed visting was free, since it's called a "free clinic". They didn't tell me the bill until after everything. They even tried to force me to take the morning after pill, but that costed 30 for two pills. Hell no. Besides, I'm not pregnant, because I'm just now finishing my period.

I spent the night at Heather's house on Monday. She picked me up and we drove to her house. We video taped Scooter barking at the vaccum cleaner. Poor thing, he freaked so much, but it was still too cute. Then we ate at Frenkies. The food was pretty good, but they gave me a big portion. Then we went to Walmart to get a few things, and Heather also wanted to get some things for her room. She bought a light rope, which is really pretty when lit. The blue lights are perfect. Then she bought a bulletin board. However, we didn't successfully hang it on the wall, because it didn't say on the package that the nails needed for the wall weren't included. She got herself a Twilight poster. Kick ass. We hung that bitch up with no problem. And she bought a really comfy comforter. I think it took an hour to clean out her closet. She wanted to go through her clothes and weed out what she wanted, and didnt need. It was fun helping her.

So Sonny still tries to talk to me after harold sent him that message, and he agreed with me last week that if i wanted to talk i would just have to send him a message and he wouldnt bother me. But, he's been sending me texts and friend requests. He's really pissing me off and I just want him to leave me alone.

Pretty much all next week I will be at harold's. But, I told my parents that I would be at heather's. She gave me permission to use her place as an excuse.

I bought Harold the movie Burn After Reading. I plan to give it to him for v-day. Well he explicitly told me that that's what he wanted. He's such a boy. Anyway,lol, I bought ky, because we're running very low. I think he mentioned about buying more condoms.

I might not get to see him until Sunday evening. I plan to get to his house after work that night, and I might have to wait for him to get off from work. He said his mom is leaving in the afternoon for the conference. He has this fantasy that expects to see me naked in his bed when he comes home from work. He'll say he's tired, I'll say I'm horny, and we'll have the best sex ever. lol

I want to

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 03:10:54 GMT

So I finally got birth control. I went to the Planned Parenthood in town and filled out all the paper work. It's only 15 dollars each month, but the day I went there, my bill was 40.

10= Visit
15= Pregnancy test (apparently mandatory)
15= Pills

The nursed begged me to take the Morning After Pill, but it would have been 30 for two pills. I told her no, because the reason I havent started my period is due to irregularity.

Today I started my period and have been cramping like crazy. I had to work 6 hours straight with no break, the pain was unbearable.
I'm glad I got the pill because I do not want to get pregnant.

This past week I have been at harolds home and we'd have sex at least onc every day I was there. twice yesterday, because my horomones were crazy.

Sonny still texts me and messages me. Apparently the rude message Harold sent hasnt gotten into his head.

Some Cyclopean Ocean of Significance

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 21:42:39 GMT

The title of this entry comes from a sketch drawing that Clayton did for his government class. He had to draw out a map of a fictional country. He let me photocopy the map. Now I have it hanging on my wall.

The Holidays treated me nice. I worked non-stop right before Christmas eve, but I had Christmas eve and christmas day off. I went to Houston for New year's. Bobby picked me and allen up and we went to his house. I met his cousin Sammie and his gf Abigail. His sister Trisha is awesome.

Harold wants to participate in a program to spend a year in Germany. I'm not sure how far I updated our relationship. I support his decision, but it's discomforting to know that our relationship could end at any time when he gets accepted. Oh well, i guess that's what i get for falling in love.

JcPenney permenantly has me working in the women's department. It kinda sucks. I dislike working with this one woman.
But I have been getting a lot of credit apps lately since working in the women's dept.

I plan to spend the night at Harold's home this wednesday. I spent the night last weekend. I havent seen him since. I invited him to hang out with Alex and I at the mall last monday, but he declined saying he was hungry. I teased him and said that because of not showing up, he owes me a dinner and a movie date.

I had a lot of fun in Houston. We left in the morning of new year's eve, and ventured eight hours until we finally arrived in Katy. Bobby wanted to show us what his hometown Blessing looked like. We met his aunt Kim in TPO. TPO is a run down town. White trailers after trailer. Palacios is not much better. Bay city is actually descent. It reminds me of Hillsboro in a way.
When we got to katy, Trisha and Michelle went to buy alcohol for us. They made cosmopolitans. But it was to strong for me, so I didn't finish my glass. I had one beer and took like two shots of vodka. I didn't drink as much as everyone else did. Matter of fact, no one really got drunk, for the exception of Abigail and Sammie. They were hammered.
I remember going outside with Abigail's brother Randy. I wanted to smoke my cigarettes, but not alone, so I invited him to join me. We talked out nornal things like high school and our future plans. Then the neighbor, who we invited because she was alone drinking champagne with her daughter, came out side with her champagne glass and sat down with us. She also smoked her cigarettes. I went inside for some reason and when I came back outside the neighbor slurred incoherently and said she was going home. She was drunk as hell.
I also remember hitting my left knee against the corner of the glass top coffee table. Trisha said she was going to move it away so that no one would hurt themselves, i.e. me.
As the clock stroked midnight, we lit as many fireworks as we could. I then called harold to wish him a new year. Him and Austin were yelling incoherently and at one point yelled profanities. I excused their behavior, thinking they were drunk or stoned.
Everyone finally goes to bed after Abigail stops having her hour and a half long asthma attack. I sleep on a very uncomfortable air mattress with Sammie.
The next morning the first thing Bobby says it that Randy has a crush on me. All I think is damn it. I tell bobby that I already have a boyfriend.
Around four we leave and we get to waco by 8:30 in the evening.
Then I had to work the next day.

My new year's resolution is to go to the Fear Before concert at Dallas on March 22.

A Missed Opportunity

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 18:11:44 GMT

Apparently Fear Before came to Waco last Saturday, and I didn't know anything about it. I could have seen them since I got off from work at 6. I'm a little upset, because I've been wanting to see them live for the past year, and haven't been able to get a ride to dallas or austin. They finally come to town, and I miss it. Fuck.
It's been over a week since my dog died. She got really sick and my dad decided it was best to put her down.
The other day I was with Harold at his home. We were making out, and he takes his shirt off. I notice a hickey on his shoulder, and he says it's from me. I tell him I never gave him one. He claims that the only girl he's been with so far is me. He also tells me that he hasn't cheated on me. I could have checked his cell if I wanted to. There wouldn't be anything there to suggest that he was cheating on me. He asks me if I think he's been cheating. I say no, but sometimes I get that feeling. Harold becomes upset, probably even pissed at me. I apologize for even doubting him, and that I would never say anything to hurt him. I do recall necking him, but I never thought I'd leave a mark. He swears it was from me. He seemed really serious about it. So I'll believe him.

For the time being...

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 15:25:51 GMT

Harold decided to not go to school next semester. He said it's stressful and he just really wants to work full time. he said that if he saves up enough money, he plans to go backpacking in Europe during the summer.
So our relationship will only last about 6 months.
I told him before we even dated that I never wanted to be in a relationship that had an egg timer on it.
But I didn't listen to what I didn't want, I listened to what I wanted, and what I wanted was to be with Harold.
I'm not regretting any of it, but I had it coming. I knew something would happen and that I wouldn't be with him long.
Though I feel embarrassed because last month I told Heather that Harold would be someone that I'd love to spend the majority of my life with. If I were to ever marry someone, harold would be that guy I want.
But, whatever, those are only daydreams, right?
So as Harold is happy and content that he has a purpose now, I'm all upset and trying to deal with this. If I don't think about it, then I'm okay, but if I do, then I'm melancholy.
He said that he still plans to be with me even if he won't go to college. But, I have this strong feeling that we will end up splitting up because of our different schedules.
I guess I'll just think of the "now" as Harold told me to do. But I do know that once we break up, it's going to hurt really bad.

My dog is getting worse and I think my parents are having her put down soon. They've been giving her a lot of scrap food, because they think she should eat whatever she wants, even if it's not considered healthy.

My parents dont want me to go to San fran early. I thought I would have to leave in spring '10, but my dad said that I could also take my basics online through academy of art. Just until I actually have to take my core courses. So I guess I will still be in Waco for the next two years.

Oh Turkey Day

Fri, 28 Nov 2008 04:35:43 GMT

My thanksgiving was very simple and laid back. We didn't even eat on the dining table. We sat in front of the television. How American.
I talked to Bobby for a little bit. He's visiting in Febraury! I cant wait to see him.
Sonny is still texting me. I'm getting annoyed even more. Who texts someone at four in the fucking morning? Really, please tell me. Even after we argued!
I've converted the extension for the short film the crew created this past summer, but Myspace server was busy when I tried to upload it.

Fuck.....

No title for entry

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 03:42:24 GMT

I got sick on sunday thanks to Harold. I caught whatever he had. It got worse throughout the day, making me sleep all hours. I even had to call in sick. Whatever I had, it disappeared on Monday.

Katie Gant died from a car accident last Friday night and I didnt know about it until my mom showed me the paper on Sunday. It feels weird to know that she died, because I had the same theatre arts class last year with her, and I got to know that she was a down to earth girl. Even though she hung out with the popular kids, she wasnt really like them. I'm not going to her funeral, because I didnt know her that well, and I wasnt friends with her. Besides, I've had enough of death. It seems like a lot of people I know have been dying.

Enough about that topic.

I get paid Friday and the paycheck is really good. I also get to see "Twilight" in the movie theater on thursday evening. Amazing.

I have yet to read the books I purchased last Thursday. Damn.

I could be doing my German homework, but I dont feel like it.

On a Thursday Evening

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 03:44:34 GMT

I haven't seen Heather all day, nor have I got a hold of her today. I hope she is okay.

I went to Harold's home and we intended to watch a movie but that didn't last long. We ended up having sex. I told him in order for a us to cutdown, we have to stop going to his house. Hopefully we can do that.

I'm not feeling well right now. I have this massive headache and an hour ago I took aspirin and it's not helping.

I might have to go to bed soon and sleep it off.

I went over my minutes. So I cant talk to anyone on my cell for awhile. I had to write my dad a $43 check for the bill.

I found a phrase for every thought I ever had, but one

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 03:22:58 GMT

I feel bad for suggesting to Harold that we spend an hour at his house before we had to go to german class. We took it too far than plannned or expected. If I hadn't recommended the hangout, we wouldn't have had a slight rift today.
I fear that he doesn't love me. I fear that he says that he loves me, but he could also be seeing another girl. He claims that the high school girl is not an issue, and that Annie is the one that hurt him last year, by leading him on and teasing him.
He reassured me that I'm the only girl he wants and that I will never loose him.
I think sometimes I worry too much, because of the crappy relationships I've had in the past.
I want this relationship to work. I know Harold is perfect and that being with him is right in every way.

Mom told me today that Princess is still sick and the vet said that the infection could actually be a tumor in her nasal cavity. We have two options if it does turn out to be a tumor:

1) We could take her to A&M and have her get surgery
2) We put her down

My parents want to do the second option, because they don't want her to suffer. I'll understand, but deep down I'll always think of them wrong to do that.
But I won't try to be upset about this, because we don't know for sure if it's a tumor.

I know I've said this before and I will say it again.
This year fucking sucks.
Just as I think it can get better, it turns around and becomes worse. Something I never wished to happen has happened and there's nothing I can do to stop it.

I wish I could leave Waco. I don't care if it's for a night or forever. Waco has become the epicenter for bad luck this year. I yearn to move away. I think that if princess does die from a tumor, I'm moving next fall. I'll finish next semester and move to San Fran like I always wanted to do in the beginning. However, that means I'll have to leave everyone behind that I love. Like my family, alex, clayton, heather, harold, paula and everyone else. I'll make a refreshing start in a place that is completely alien to me, but I think that's what I need.

Let me not mar that perfect dream

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 16:39:42 GMT

Today I have to get to the mall early to find a black polo shirt without any design or logo. I tried to find some at the Wal-mart in Bellmead, but I had no luck.

Here is my list of things I need to do:

Go to my bank and ask for a debit card (may ask for online banking)
Register for my Spring classes (I have a feeling that AAU wont accept German credit)
Buy a new pair of shoes
Buy a new pair of jeans (preferably two pairs IF cheap)
Plan a picnic day with Harold and make the lunch
Pay for my car insurance
Get gas and put air in my tires

I feel like I'm missing some things. But I dont know.

Harold wanted me to spend the night tonight. It's not going to happen. I dont get out of work until ten and have to be back there at one in the afternoon tomorrow. Plus, I'd have to lie to my parents and say I'm going to heather's. I am tired of lying. Besides, they got upset last weekend for me staying out til two thirty in the morning.

My mom still hasnt gotten my birthday cake. I hope she gets it tomorrow. It's like that every year. She either forgets or buys it a week later.

I really dont want to go to work, but I have to. bleh.

Untouched by morning, and untouched by noon

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 05:21:58 GMT

So, Obama won. I'm so excited and happy. I'm glad he won instead of McCain. I would have had to move to Cananda if McCain won.

I got paid today. It's a little more than I got paid last time. Tomorrow I'm working from one til ten at night. Oh joy. It's the biggest sale tomorrow.

I'd like to disspell a rumor: I am NOT dating Sonny. Never will I go back out with him. I broke up with him two months ago and that boy can't let go. He still gets upset. When I visited him a few minutes on my birthday, I APPARENTLY purposely made him cry. Whatever, not true. He needs to get a back bone and realize that there is nothing between us anymore. There will never be a day in my life that I will take him back. He called a few days ago and asked me when we were going to hang out. Obviously he didn't hear me when I said that we shouldn't see each other for awhile. I haven't talked to him since then, and I don't plan to call him. Everytime I'm on the phone with him, we always have these little arguements.

It's been two weeks since I started kissing Harold. And I've been doing it ever since. That night I had to kiss him. I needed to get that frustration out of me. I couldn't hold it in any longer. After that he's taken me on a picnic near the river. It was perfect. This past Monday, he took me to his house. I know this will sound pathetic, but we had sex, or at least attempted. I have no regrets. It felt right. Usually I wait a long time to have sex with someone who I'm dating. However, I'm not dating Harold officially. And I had sex with him about two weeks after we first kissed. I know it's soon. Him and I click very well. I know we have a deep connection. I don't understand myself for not telling Harold that I want to be his real girlfriend, not his psuedo-quasi-defacto girlfriend. I kinda like this casual relationship. I'll commit and be faithful, but we don't have that label or title as boyfriend and girlfriend. I guess that way, I don't feel tied down. I know that sounds really bad. Harold means everything to me. He is more perfect than anyone I've dated in the past. He actually cares about me. I think I'm falling in love. I don't just love him, I think I'm in love with him.

Right now I'm listening to the song "West Coast" by Coconut Records. I listened to that song constantly to and back from my trip to Germany. It brings back memories I have from that trip. It reminds me of the last time I saw my grandparents before we had to leave for the airport. That morning was the last time I saw them before they died. I still hurt from it. I don't think I'll ever stop hurting.

I will daydream of fruitflies and honeybees

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 04:21:29 GMT

I turned 19 today. I feel a little bit older, but not much.
Ever since saturday, Harold and I have been kissing, even though we arent officially dating. I dont find it wrong. We know to take it slow and casual. Its sort of like we're dating, but we dont have the title of boyfriend and girlfriend.
Harold wanted me to watch The Rocky Horror Picture Show on the fox channel. I did, but there were so many commercial breaks that after the first 30 mins of it, I couldnt watch anymore.
Harold is taking me on a date tomorrow night. We're going to see the movie Quarantine. he saw the spanish version and he said it was really good. Hopefully this version is good. Then he wants to take me to his house to see Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. But I have a feeling that wont happen since his mom doesnt like it when girls are over and the door is closed.
I dislike my job at JCP. I dont mind working there, but being at the cash register sucks. The girls there are rude and I constantly make mistakes. Hopefully the mananger wont make a big deal about it tomorrow when I talk to her. Id rather zone for 9 hours than stand and make transactions.
God, I hear sirens. I wonder what happened this time.
My neighbor died friday. She was my fifth grade teacher. I went to the visitation on Monday and it was very depressing.
It's late and I have to wake up early.

P.S. Harold is amazing.

The '08 Sound

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 04:16:27 GMT

Wow. I haven't posted a blog on here since March. I was usually using Myspace for blogging, but since I have Facebook, I hardly go on Myspace.
This year has been on hell of a fucking ride.
I went to Germany during Spring break. I had a lot of fun then.
Sonny and I were on the verge of breaking up three times.
The day before Mother's Day, My Oma (Mom's mother) dies.
Opa gets really sick and dies on Septmember 2.
I break up with Sonny because I was tired of the relationship and everything.
I started MCC and have been loving it.
I made two friends, Heather and Harold.
I'm single and I'm liking it.
I have no regrets dumping Sonny what-so-ever.

Fear Before the March of Flames will now be only addressed as Fear Before. Why? I'm not sure. But I really want to buy their cd when it comes out next month.

I still haven't figured out this one guy's name. I've seen him on campus and Barnes & Noble.

I finally got my yearbook. It is really plain.

Though I'm hating my english class. It's annoying.

I've applied at many places for a job, and no one is hiring me. It's not like I have lepersy or some disease. I need to make money. I hate asking my parents for money.

So many things happened this year and it hasn't even ended yet.

p.s. I think I'll try to post on here as much as possible...

voting

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 00:20:52 GMT

So. I'm voting tomorrow. I have to vote at Chalf Bluff Baptist Church, because there's no place in Gholson to vote.
I'm voting for Hillary. If she doesnt win this primary, I'll still vote for the democrat even if it's not Hillary.

If you oppose me then dont. I actually find it annoying when someone tells me that the person I'm voting for is useless to be President. it's not like I'm ragging on you. I have a right to vote for who I want, and if you dont like it then screw you.

Venus, Italy

Sun, 02 Mar 2008 19:46:02 GMT

Hmm. This weekend has been interesting. A lot of stuff happened.
Paula came with me, Sonny, and Devon to Beatnix and near the end of the night they somewhat hooked up. Well they confessed to each other that they liked each other.
We were on our way to beatnix because Jackson Edwards was playing, well paula was saying something that Brian said about California. And then Devon said something about Italy. Devon said that Sicily was surrounded by water and I meant to say Venice was, but I said Venus! Total idiot. lol
After beatnix we went back to devon's place to "judge" the guys about their playing. Well Paula couldnt get a hold of David for some reason so she ended up staying the night at devon's.
Saturday we hung out again. We went to beatnix because Sonny wanted to play. Jordan couldnt play the bongos so Devon went up there. He was really good for just improving the whole thing.
Paula found out on Friday that Shane who's friends with devon and Sonny, was the same Shane Paula saw on New year's Eve.
Then Saturday Paula found out that she went to school with Jordan during the third grade. It's a small world.
Then katie (devon's ex) showed up at Beatnix even though brooke knew but delibratley didnt tell devon (even though they are like brother and sister). So Devon and katie fought for the majority of the time and then Paula felt uncomfortable.
A band called The Love Explosion (basically meaning "cumming") played. They were heavy metal acoustic death core. lol. Pretty acoustic rythym with growling the whole time. People left afterwards. We did too. The music was good, but the growling was so miss matched. The lead singer looked like Tom of Blink-182 when they did the "first date" music video. lol
It was a great weekend. Something different than usual. Hopefully I can do it again next weekend.

this week.

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 01:05:29 GMT

This week has been boring but crazy.
Last Wednesday I assumed Trent has a crush on me because he constantly complimented me and asked Jeremy to talk to me. Well Friday he didnt talk to me or even look at me. I wonder if someone said anything. To be honest I kinda miss the attention. lol jk.

Paula is worried that she's pregnant. She's planning to go to Planned Parenthood.

I added trent on Myspace and he accepted. On his profile it says he's in a relationship. He probably found a girlfriend when he got the hint I couldnt be with him since I'm already with somebody.

Went to NHS ceremony that only lasted about 30 minutes.

Today allen and I got locked out from outside. We forgot our keys. Then mom came home got us inside and went back to work.

Though the highlight so far:

1. made alex a sign for his locker (picture of puppy kissing kitty) I had to give it to him.
2. saw aaron car break down in the middle of a four way intersection (he says it was an automatic) right.
3. received my fear before the march of flames t-shirts. yeah bitches.

There's probably more but i cant think of it right now. I need to eat, take a shower, and study for an eco test.

oh wow...

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 22:58:45 GMT

Today is Sonny's birthday and he turns 20! he's so old. lol

Apparently Trent Clark likes me. He even asked Jeremy to talk to me. Ew. I have a boyfriend, and trent is so hick he beats everyone out the ball park. Though I wont be a bitch about it. I'll be nice and tell him that we should just be friends. But knowing him he'll say whatever, because he just wanted sex from the beginning.

Benny just told me that he boke up with kayla. He hasnt told me why yet. It's sad because they seemed like they would be together for awhile, you know? poor kid.

Sunday Funday sarcasm

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 21:53:59 GMT

I just finished writing my research paper. Took like two hours. Tomorrow I'll have to fine tune it.
I'm bored today and hungry.
Abi was in denton this weekend, so Paula and I couldnt go over there.
I dont know what to get Sonny for V-day. Boys are tough to get romantic presents for. Sonny asked me last night if we could just go on a date and not give presents. To be honest it wouldnt be different. it would seem like a regular date. but oh well. who cares. I told him I wanted a small present because it wouldnt be fair if I gave him one and I didnt get anything in return.
he said that he would go to San fran with me. I think he lied to me when he said that he like had another year to go because he said" so what do I do now when you go to mcc?'
i was like" i dont know"
he said something that he might have to do that internship anyway.

the whole reason why I even worried about staying in waco was because he acted like he still had more school left. I will be ticked if I find out he would actually be finished with school when summer ends, because i had to worry about school whether or not to leave his ass here and stuff. bull shit. utter bull shit.
I can stay at mcc for those two years if he likes it or not.

Wednesday

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 00:34:58 GMT

It's Wednesday! Criminal Minds is on tonight on CBS. I have to see Matthew Gray Grumbler. He's one cute actor.

Mitzi is sitting next to the computer acting all cutesy. I love her.

I've been really tired this week.

I've decided that when I go to MCC, I'll be taking their French class. It says nowhere that they offer German. Though I might ask them when I register next month. No offense, but I'm tired of Spanish. I would take Italian but it's not far from Spanish, in a way. They're not so close, but somewhat similiar. But we'll see what happens.

Classes have been boring as hell. Repetitive.

I don't feel like cleaning the kitchen. So lazy.

Mom bought Diet Coke Plus. It's really good, but I've been so used to regular Diet Coke. Oh well. They're both good.

Dear, HP: Love, Craft.

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 03:55:07 GMT

I've been looking at Academy of Art's dorms and I saw the one I would love to live in. The Coco Chanel Dorm. Every room has either a private bathroom or a shared one. They have computers, cable, tvs, PS2, and a study room. Oh and they have a huge kitchen. The dorm is for woman only, under the age of 21. There's also another dorm called International House but domestic students can live there also.

I can't wait till I get finished with MCC. I might not stay for the whole two years, if I get tired of Waco. But who knows.

I'm just hooked on San Francisco. I want to be there so bad. I'm really thinking about visiting that place during the summer and probably not coming back. lol just kidding.

The city calls my name in every dream or thought I have.

If Sonny and I are still together, hopefully he decides to come with me. And if not, that's fine. He can stay here and I will be there. I wont make a big deal about it until the two years are up. Then that's when he has to make a choice.

This week has been long. Sooo much drama. Apparently Humpal knows about my escape plan to Germany. Damn. lol. Most likely Wilcox complained or Love gossiped. Or maybe someone was talking about it in his English class. Bri and Kayla have him for English. He probably over heard when he wasnt suppossed to.

Tonight wasnt spent wisely. I just sat infront of this machine, browsing the net, or watching I love Lucy with my mom and talking about future plans with San fran. Mom said she will most likely visit me often in San fran. We will go shopping and hit all the neat cafes. Ride the street cars and visit all the site- markers.

Boy I cant wait. Just two more years. Just two more years.

I dont think I'm going to take pics of Devon and Sonny. Sonny didnt tell him that I wanted to do it this weekend. And most likely they will not want to do it around lunch time when natural light is at its best, so that we have all day to shoot before it gets dark early. But oh well.

argh. I'm so bored. woe is me.

Fallen Leaves

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 23:37:54 GMT

I'm leaving for Germany on March 9. I won't come back until the March 23. Though Wilcox is replacing me in One Act. I'll be an alternate which will be better than nothing. It sucks and I'm still a little bit pissed, but I'll get over it. No big deal. It's been crazy this week. I can't wait for the week to end. Two more days.

Mrs. Love found my prom dress. She said if she orders that dress it will only be 101 dollars. She pulled some strings because the dress was originally 180.

I'm reading A Clockwork Orange but I need to study the Nadsat slang language. Nadsat will be the official language for Carebeartown. lol

I'm really tired. I went to bed earlier than usual but I feel like crashing at the end of the day.

Tamburines and Wind Chimes

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 20:34:30 GMT

This weekend has been interesting.
I saw the movie Meet The Spartans and drank vodka for the first time. I love vodka. Clayton you should be proud of me. :)
Saturday during the day I didn't do much. David invited me to go to Abi's place and I went. I had fun. We watched Super Bad and hung out. Abi, Paula and I drove to Jimmy's place because Abi needed to visit. Well when we left the apartment complex, abi turned the car sharply and her bong water mixed with Jones Soda spilled on my jeans. It wasnt a big deal, but bong water, ew. :) lol
man, so much stuff happened in so little time, because David and I were there for a few hours until 3 30 but I didnt get home till 4 because it was so foggy.
I had fun because I hardly go to Abi's because I never have a ride. Though I would like to go to abi's more often.
Then paula found out that her dad was goiing to call the cops because he didnt know where she was, evne though she told him, but since he was drunk all day, he forgot. It was crazy.
I dont know what I'm doing today. The tribe planned a hangout only if david could get gas money. But he hasnt called to give me an update. I just sent him a text. Oh well, it's no big deal. There's always next weekend.
I do not really want to go to school. I dont fancy it anymore.

Hazard

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 23:33:43 GMT

I still am shocked over the death of Heath Ledger. So many rumors are flying around about his so called "drug abuse" or that people knew about his declining health but didnt even bother to help him. I'm really starting to dislike media.

Oh and I have to write an essay for Enviornmental Science. I think it had to be 3 pages long. At least I'm not just sitting there pretending to outline the WHOLE chapter.

I decided to write about Elizabeth Barret Browning and Robert Browning. It still ties in with Romanticism. Doherty said that sunject was a little broad, so she suggested a narrower topic.

Alex "Mc Lovin'" tagged my locker with a sign. It's pretty. He even put our little inside joke on it. "freshman quality".

I'm super! Thanks for asking.

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 23:37:15 GMT

Wow, Heath Ledger died yesterday. Autopsy said death is inconclusive. Poor guy he was a well known actor and had a kid and now he's gone. He will be missed.

I've been getting the first signs of Senioritis. I contemplated if I should go to school, but I end up forcing myself to get out of bed.

I've decided what my research paper will be about: Romanticism.

Yes I've actually found information using the school's databases!

I've been reading As Simple As Snow. I'm addicted.

Semester Exam Day 1

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 22:15:13 GMT

Today seemed short even if it was already an hour short day.

Mrs. Anz's test was easy. Just like the review we did.

Doherty's test was also easy. Although on 4 questions I kinda had to guess. But that's fine.

I already worked on my self evaluation paper for Humpal. So the majority of the time I surfed Wikipedia looking for Germanic surnames. Humpal wants me to evaluate everyone on their behavior. If they are working on their spreads everday or if they have teamwork skills.

Tomorrow I have German, Government, and Theatre Production (I really dont want to see Wilcox after what happened on Tuesday). *sigh*

For the German midterm, I have to study all the vocab from chapters 11-14. There's like 30 vocab for each chapter. Boohoo.

For Theatre Production, Wilcox asked me what the exam should be. I told him an unprepared monologue. But that was a week ago and he hasn't said anything to the other girls before. Now since that Shelby quit, he's going to a mad at everyone.

You know, my bus driver who calls himself Squirrel reminds me of Boomhower from King of the Hill.....